Corinne Sucks.

            Hello. I’m Corinne Syquia, and I’m going to give you a few reasons why you wouldn’t want to be me.

            First of all, I’ve got a lot of self-loathing. A lot of times I look at myself in the mirror and think of all the other girls who should feel lucky they don’t have my face or body. It isn’t just about looks, either; a lot of times I’m not very confident about my own intelligence, or talents. I also think that I would never be good enough for anybody; a good enough friend, a good enough girlfriend (I've yet to acquire such a position, though), a good enough sister or daughter. As a result, I spend a lot of my time envying other people for what they have and just as much time being depressed over what I don’t have.

             I’m kind of proud. Saying sorry doesn’t usually come easy for me and sometimes I just can’t take that some people are better than me at some things. The same goes for criticism; sometimes my pride won’t allow me to accept that sometimes my best simply isn’t good enough.

             I’m painfully shy, self-conscious and I care too much about what other people think about me. This is why I find it difficult to talk to certain people; I’d prefer to keep quiet instead of saying something silly or embarrassing. I live in the constant fear that whatever stupid thing I’d say would stick in mine and other people’s heads forever and I hate myself for it. A lot of days I wish I could just loosen up.

            As I wrote all the things I absolutely hated about myself, a few realizations came to mind: first, is that everybody’s got something wrong with them. Nobody’s perfect, and everyone’s got something about themselves that they absolutely hate. Second, the more positive outlook to this is that everybody has the ability to change and improve themselves. I always believed that nobody has an excuse to not become a better person. It’s about time I applied that to myself.