the choice.

    I'm sure we've all been curious about a few things here and there, homosexuality and bisexuality being some of them. We all have those questions that we just itch to ask, but sometimes are too shy to do so. But we noticed that when it came to asking them the questions, we couldn't really think of what we wanted to know. We were stuck thinking... What did we always want to ask them again? I guess it's because in the moment when you actually get to ask those questions, all those random ones you've always wanted to ask, disappear. So this made it hard for us to actually come up with good questions.

   We had to interview two gay guys, two lesbians and two bisexuals. One paminta, and one effem for the gay. One butch and one femme for the lesbian. And of course, one girl and one guy for the bisexual. It was actually hard because most of the people we tried to contact were all too shy to be interviewed. Maybe because most of them didn't really want the whole world to know or something, but it is their choice anyway.

    We weren't able to ask all of them the same questions while at the same time, some questions they just refused to answer or were not applicable to them. :D

   The people we interviewed are as follows:
      Josel:        Effem
      Ted:         Bisexual guy
      Kenneth:  Paminta
      Mia:         Femme
      Alyssa:    Bisexual girl
      Aish:        Butch

   When did you first know you weren't straight?
            Josel: 1st year high school
            Ted: I suddenly had a crush on a boy/guy
            Kenneth: When I was 15 years old
            Mia: In high school when a girl had a crush on me. I guess I realized I liked her too?
            Alyssa: When I was 17.
            Aish: Ever since I was 13

   Have you ever had a sex experience?
           Josel: Yes
           Alyssa: Yes
           Aish: No

    What's the first thing you look for in a partner?
            Josel: Face value
            Ted: Face value
            Mia: Sense of humor
            Aish: So bad, but their body. hihi.

   What kind of toys did you play with as a child?
          Kenneth: Normal little boy's toys like swords, action figures etc.


    How were you sure you were a lesbian?
           Aish: because I really wasn't attracted to boys.
           Mia: I stopped liking guys. 


    Do you want kids?
          Josel: No
          Ted: Yes
          Mia: Yes
          Alyssa: Yes
          Aish: No

    Do you find it weird when tow pinks get together?
            Josel: Yes
            Ted: What's a pink?

    Have you ever been in love?
           Josel: Yes
           Mia: Yes
           Alyssa: Yes
           Aish: Yes

    Do you think it's strange to wear girl's clothes if you're a guy?
           Josel: No
           Ted: No, not sure. ( No preference)  
           Kenneth: Yes I do, I think a guy in girl's clothes is awkward.
          
    Are you proud to be gay/lesbian/bisexual?
          Josel: Naman!
          Ted: No
           Kenneth: Yes
           Mia: Yes
           Alyssa: Yes
           Aish: No


    Does you family accept your choice?
          Josel: Yes
          Ted: No
           Kenneth: No, They don't like it.
           Mia: No
           Alyssa: Yes
           Aish: Yes


    Do you think people are prejudiced towards you because you are gay?

           Kenneth: No. They treat me just like everyone else.

 

    Do you think it's awkward if a girl end up liking you? (She doesn't know you're gay.)

            Kenneth: No it's expected. ;)

 

    Are you ok with being seen going out or being in a relationship with another guy/girl?

            Kenneth: Yep.

            Mia: Sometimes.
            Alyssa: YUP!
            Aish: No


    I had fun interviewing them, actually. I was able to meet some great people and I was able to hear some stories about how people would judge them because of a choice they made. Why do people love to judge others? Why can't people accept others for who they are? Who are they to say what's right and wrong? Moral or immoral? Good and bad? Everyone is different in their own ways and I think it's in each person to stick to it and develop their uniqueness or throw it all away and conform to the norms.


Group Entry
Written by:  Mirabai Sebastian

Cinemalaya

I know it's been a while since Cinemalaya took place in CCP and Greenbelt. But I haven't been able to share my thoughts on it.

First of all, the only reason I watched at first was because my older sister was required to watch one of the sets for her class. I had no idea how good they were and I'm so sad that I didn't get the chance to watch more. I watched the shorts A set and I really loved the very first one the most which was entitled, Hanapbuhay. Thing about that was that you wouldn't understand the point of the story until the very end of the film, which was awesome. It wasn't as predictable as most films. In the film the camera was basically following this guy that would end up in places where, you realize in the end, someone might die. I had to wonder in the beginning why he was throwing rocks at the free medical check-up tents, or why he was cheering for this guy to be shot, or why he wanted this other guy to jump off the cliff and commit suicide. In the end, you find out that his job is selling coffins, and his job, business or work depended on people's deaths. All that time, he was just waiting for someone to die. And in the end when the film ended with a gun shot that made the whole family smile, you could tell that it was a good day.

I don't watch so many Filipino films because most of them are too dramatic. I just like the simple funny ones like Kimmy Dora or Tanging Ina, which used to be one of my favorite movies. I think that most of the movies nowadays are all the same. They have the same stories, the same setting the same... everything. Have they all been brainwashed so much that they can't even think of anything new to produce? This is why I think Indie films are the best way to really showcase the talents of Filipinos that do films. This is the only place for them to really be more expressive and creative with their ideas. They aren't limited to the basic plot of the commercial films.

-Mirabai Sebastian

EPICALLY SUCK. by Trixia 'trixie' Limes

I suck because .. well I am the only one who eats "Tamarind soup base". I literally mix it with kool-aid sometimes and start dabbing my finger on it and there you go. :/ I'll probably die from that cause of all the salt and shit but still. *laugh*  People have cocaine and I have this. :p I even eat it with mangoes and or other fruits/practically anything. I am also pretty tiny in height and in size. I stand around 4'11 or 4'10 and I wasn't bothered growing up as a kid. I haven't noticed my height till everyone else just started growing like beanstalks. I was normal when I was in the 4th or 5th grade. Well I knew I was always petite but , I don't know. It never actually bothers me but I'm cool with my height. I've learned to be comfortable with it and if people just tease me about my height. I think pathetically to myself, well bitch I'm prettier than you or if I kick your balls and break them what would you do?  :) It also took me awhile to ride a bike and swim. I learned how to surf first before swimming so I'm pretty much a horrible swimmer. It sounds stupid huh ? A Surfer that can't swim. Well I can but just not as "COOL" as everyone else can.




I am epic because.. I'm short but I am kick ass. Well not literally I've been grown in a wack ass city where you have to watch your back. I have been in fights with boys. NOT GAY GUYS. BOYS. I'm really short so people always used to pick on me as a kid. Until I played wrestling with the boys and started to get into fights. I learned how to catch my breathe when being kicked/punched in the gut. I learned that kicking guys' balls and then punching their noses is the best tactic too. :) ofcourse I was in between my adolescent period. I was around 6th-7th grade. I also played lots of sports as a kid( i.e. baseball,surfing and track and field).  I always thought I would turn out a bisexual chick or a lesbian for that reason. I hated softball cause other girls would get too scared to catch the ball or they would run too slow. I always hated how girly girls were. Although, I admit wanting to put make up as a kid. Maybe that explains why I like to prep up my face by wearing eyeliner and all those. I am also into cars cause of video games, I used to play as a kid. I used to play with my guy cousins and my dad. We used to play my "Need For Speed" games or my "Midnight Club". I was so into the machinery and customizing cars. I also know a few cars that my boyfriend doesn't even know.
Well I guess I can't go on and on with my essay so I'll end this with a thought I've been wanting. I don't know but lately I've been thinking of whether I should get a tattoo. I hope I don't wake up one day and repulsively plan to get one then regretting right after. I always wanted a reminder of my teenage years. I hope to add more stupidity to my collection. HAHA :) I like making mistakes they're fun and you get to know more from them. :)

-TRIXIE LIMES

The Epic Mirabai Sebastian

Here's my other half, my awesome part. ;)

I am Mirabai Sebastian and I am epic.

I am epic because I can eat and eat and eat and NOT get full. I've only actually gotten full 3 times in my life. Those were beautiful times. I tend to eat a lot so I think my stomach has gotten used to all the food going in my body.

I am epic because when I was 8 years old, I had my hair dyed gold. I originally wanted it to be white, but they didn't have it in the salon, then I asked for red, but they didn't have that either. So I decided to stick with the gold. look at my photos, there's always this shiny golden thing on top of my head.

I am epic because I'm creative, I'm different, and I'm unique. I am epic because I know when to be those things. I know when to use my creativity, when to be different and to always be unique.

I am epic because I have magic hands. I just have to raise my hand and position it as if there was a glass, and a glass of lemongrass will appear there. Although sometimes it is Gatorade or water. But the whole point is that it magically appears there without me uttering a word.

I am epic because I don't give a shit what other people think of me. They could give me faces and I would simply tell them to get a life. I ask people if what I'm doing bothers them just to make sure that I'm not hurting or offending them. Aside from that, I am who I am and I don't care what people think. They could keep judging me however they like but I won't care.

I'm epic because I graduated form Hogwarts. Seriously. No. I'm just kidding. But I'm pretty sure it's the closest school we have here to Hogwarts. I mean, our school is located far from the city since you can see the pollution from our campus. We have a forest right beside our school, just like Hogwarts, maybe if we explored it, we'd find a huge spider, but I'm not ready for that experience. Whenever I tell people about my school, they  think I go to Hogwarts. Good enough for me.

I am epic because I can sing like a guy while singing opera style. You will see me one day performing on a stage doing Any Dream Will Do from Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat and I can sign like I'm Phantom of the Opera.

I am epic because I start trends. They say that imitation is the best form of flattery, but I have to say it suck at the same time. But it doesn't have it's perks.

I am epic because I can make my own stuff and it doesn't seem like I just made it myself. Most of the time, something I make from a scrap of cloth turns into a signature accessory.

But in the end, maybe I just suck. Maybe the level of my "suckiness" is so great that it reaches an all new level of EPIC. I epically suck! I'm so epic because I suck. I suck so much that people would be so shocked at how much I suck that they think it's epic.

By Mirabai Sebastian

I Suck.

I am Mirabai Sebastian and I suck.

I've been thinking about what to post for this for a while now. But It's come to a point where it's write or fail. Well, I probably won' fail yet just because of one essay that I haven't written, but you get the point.

I think we all suck in our own little ways. We're a balance of complete loser and total awesomeness. But we often fail to see the difference. I still don't know which part of me is which. Most of the time, my friends tell me suck because of something awesome I did. Then they go ahead and tell me I'm awesome, sarcastically, after I do something wrong. That doesn't exactly help, does it?

So, why do I suck? I suck because I am completely stupid when it comes to academic shit. I'm not even kidding. I wish I could say otherwise, but it would be a lie. I suck because, make me take a test on some science or something completely academic and I will fail. I'll study all night and still fail. That's because all I am is street smart. Make me read a textbook, I'll fall asleep. Make me read a book, I'll start zoning out and doodling or daydreaming about being anywhere but there, reading a book.

I suck because when I was in grade five, my teacher told my dad to bring me to the eye doctor to have my eyes checked because she thought something was wrong with my eyesight. Although I knew that the only thing wrong was that I didn't know how to read. Even as a fifth grader, I sucked.

I suck because I turn into a monster when I drive. That doesn't mean I'm a horribly wild and reckless driver, it just means that you put me in the driver's seat, add some traffic with some crazy pedestrians and I will curse until I've parked. I will get pissed off even at the street children that keep wiping the windshield when it's raining. I will honk my horn from my tiny Suzuki Swift until I don't see your car. If cars didn't break and people didn't get hurt in them, the drivers out there would have been bumped by me endlessly. I will not stop until they realize just how stupid they are.

I suck because at the age of thirteen, I wanted to be a fashion designer and I dressed up like a freakin' hobo. Okay, maybe that's taking it too far. But looking back, what I would wear was just disgusting. I would have puked at myself if I could.

I suck because if you're doing something you really shouldn't be doing, I will tell. I can be a tattletale but only because I have to follow rules. If I have to do it, so should you.

I suck because I pretend to be German by using a fake German accent and when I start speaking in Filipino, I start to speak with a Chinese accent. I suck because I can't stop. After a few days of speaking like that, I lost control of my own speech. Even my grammar started getting mixed up that my mind was getting insanely retarded, not knowing what "language" to speak in.

I suck because I'm bipolar. I'll like you on second the next, I'll want to stab you with a knife. I will be your friend, then ultimately hate you after.

I suck because I am this tall giant who scares people away. I suck because when people see me, they think I'm some smoking bitch that loves to party.

Lastly, I suck because I always say I'm awesome even though I know I'm not.

By Mirabai Sebastian

Why am I EPIC? by: L. Tan.

           All of us are unique and all of us have our own epic shits. Sometimes we do epic stuff that is way beyond the expectations of others. Our epicosity is only limited by our own capabilities and bitchyness. At first glance you may think that I'm just a fat-ugly loser that sucked all his life. But in this essay is not for the weak heart because once you read this and found out how epic I am,you might have a heart attack, son of a gun!
           I'll share you some things that(I think) makes me EPIC! I can do the "bridge" even though I'm fat. Seriously I can do it. :) Yes, I know it looks impossible for my physique to do such thing. I am weird. Weird like... I like sweet treats with a little bit of salt something like caramel popcorn, it tastes better with a pinch of salt. (; I can dress myself even though I'm fat. (except for Swendnesdays (Sweats Wednesdays) and lazy days) I have epic friends. I can cook. (lol how do you think I got this fat. I have to finish everything that I cook) I almost lost 30lbs. (think 29.9 something) but regained it partially (lol and I don't have plans to regain it all back). I can already cross the street unlike before even in high school I was struggling to cross a one way street. Seriously. No kidding. I am also epic because I want to be different, different is good. I got featured at www.stylebible.ph lol it's rare to be featured in a website designed for the slender and fashionable ((; .
And lastly, I am EPIC because I'M A FREE BITCH BABY!! Because Lady GaGa told me so :)). Watcha think about me now bitch?

 
 
 To end this essay I want to share to you this song:
I'm Awesome - Spose

watch the video below:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OYws8biwOYc
Awesome, awesome, awesome, awesome...
I don't necessarily need to be here for this...
I'm gonna keep the headphones though...
Mother fucker I'm awesome!
No you're not, dude don't lie
I'm awesome!
I'm drivin around in my mom's ride
I'm awesome!
A quarter of my life gone by
And I met all my friends online
Mother fucker I'm awesome!
I will run away from a brawl
I'm awesome!
There's no voicemail, nobody called
I'm awesome!
I can't afford to buy eight balls
And I talk to myself on my Facebook wall



You know my pants sag low (low)
Even though (though) that went out of style
Like ten years ago (go)
Spose, I got the swagger of a cripple
I got little biceps,
Getting fatter in the middle



And lyrically I'm not the best :)
Physically the opposite of Randy Moss and yet
So preposterous
Feel the awesomeness, the most obnoxious
Guest up at the sausage fest
Oh yes!
The girls are repulsed
So I hide in my hood like i'm joining a cult
Uh Uhh
I'm as nervous as my cat Ol' Dirty Curtis
All my writtens are bitten and
All my verses are purchased
Me? I'll never date an actress
Got too many back zits
Plus my whole home aroma is cat piss
Every show i do is poorly promoted and if you like this,
It's cuz my little sister wrote it



I'm awesome!
No you're not, dude don't lie
I'm awesome!
I'm drivin around in my mom's ride
I'm awesome!
A quarter of my life gone by
And I met all my friends online
Mother fucker I'm awesome!
I will run away from a brawl
I'm awesome!
There's no voicemail, nobody called
I'm awesome!
I can't afford to buy eight balls
And I talk to myself on my Facebook wall
I'm awesome



Check it out



I'm from Maine and I don't hunt, nope
And I can't ski
Smoke weed but I can't roll blunts
Find me whipped by my wifey
My neck not icy
Eatin at McDonalds because Subway's pricey



Uh, and my unibrow is plucked
Just asked my mom if I could borrow ten bucks
She's like "For what?
Blunt wraps and some Heineken?
You skinny prick, go get a gym membership and vitamins!"
I'm like, Mom please, don't blame it on me
I got my bad habits from you, Dad, and Aunt Steve
My attitude's sour but my futon's sweet,
And the hair on my ass, it is Jumanji




Suit untailored, ringtone Taylor Swift
Can't tweet up on my Twitter
Cuz I haven't done shit
Bank account red, body ungroomed
The only thing good about me is I'm off stage soon



I'm awesome!
No you're not, dude don't lie
I'm awesome!
I'm drivin around in my mom's ride
I'm awesome!
A quarter of my life gone by
And I met all my friends online
Mother fucker I'm awesome!
I will run away from a brawl
I'm awesome!
There's no voicemail, nobody called
I'm awesome!
I can't afford to buy eight balls
And I talk to myself on my Facebook wall
I'm awesome



Futhermore I'm cornier than Ethynol
Cheesier than Provolone
I spent ages eight to ten living in a motor home
With an ego the size of Tim Duncan
Even though I got shit for brains like a blumpkin
I'm twenty four, serving lobster rolls
Because I spent a decade filling optimos
And I'm not even the bomb in Maine
On my game I'm only about as sexy as John McCain
Now put your hands up,
If you have nightmares
If you wouldn't man up if there was a fight here
If you got dandruff, if you drink light beer
I'm outta breath...



But I'm awesome!
No you're not, dude don't lie
I'm awesome!
I'm drivin around in my mom's ride
I'm awesome!
A quarter of my life gone by
And I met all my friends online
Mother fucker I'm awesome!
I will run away from a brawl
I'm awesome!
There's no voicemail, nobody called
I'm awesome!
I can't afford to buy eight balls
And I talk to myself on my Facebook wall
I'm awesome

Corinne Sucks.

            Hello. I’m Corinne Syquia, and I’m going to give you a few reasons why you wouldn’t want to be me.

            First of all, I’ve got a lot of self-loathing. A lot of times I look at myself in the mirror and think of all the other girls who should feel lucky they don’t have my face or body. It isn’t just about looks, either; a lot of times I’m not very confident about my own intelligence, or talents. I also think that I would never be good enough for anybody; a good enough friend, a good enough girlfriend (I've yet to acquire such a position, though), a good enough sister or daughter. As a result, I spend a lot of my time envying other people for what they have and just as much time being depressed over what I don’t have.

             I’m kind of proud. Saying sorry doesn’t usually come easy for me and sometimes I just can’t take that some people are better than me at some things. The same goes for criticism; sometimes my pride won’t allow me to accept that sometimes my best simply isn’t good enough.

             I’m painfully shy, self-conscious and I care too much about what other people think about me. This is why I find it difficult to talk to certain people; I’d prefer to keep quiet instead of saying something silly or embarrassing. I live in the constant fear that whatever stupid thing I’d say would stick in mine and other people’s heads forever and I hate myself for it. A lot of days I wish I could just loosen up.

            As I wrote all the things I absolutely hated about myself, a few realizations came to mind: first, is that everybody’s got something wrong with them. Nobody’s perfect, and everyone’s got something about themselves that they absolutely hate. Second, the more positive outlook to this is that everybody has the ability to change and improve themselves. I always believed that nobody has an excuse to not become a better person. It’s about time I applied that to myself.